Well, guys, it's currently 12:12 am, I can't seem to type, and I'm crying again.
I was on the phone with Justin and Mack and Justin was talking about how I'm not going to be able to hold up my sex goal (to stay a virgin until marriage) if I'm with him. I said I wasn't going to date him because I'm with Ryan, and he said "Well B, not every breakup is planned". All of us got silent, because the words sunk in and we were all realizing how it was said and how each of us took it. Mack in a "Oh dude, bad move", Justin in a "Ah shit, what did I just say?", and me in a "God dammit" because I was crying. So much pain still. Justin was smart and left, not wanting me to cry more. I basically poured my heart out to Mack, crying harder. Mack comforted me well, but now it's gonna be a long night . . .
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Alright, now it's 10:05, and I feel somewhat better. Cried my eyes out until I feel asleep, which took about 2 hours or so. Well, today is going to be better. Still can't seem to spell, but I'm gonna go work the Snack Shack at the Baseball fields for my Dad, who is the President of the Little League here. Everyone is gonna help. Will most likely write about how that went. For now, goodbye traveler
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