Awesome day!
Alright, so the boob cuts (which look like a cat with six claws/ two cats with three claws) look better, but I got lucky. One kinda got really close to . . . well, yeah . . . Went to Ryan's today, played Hackey Sack, kissed a lot, and watched Gladiator, from where we left off (Maximus' last fight in the battles happening somewhere in Africa/Middle East) to the fourth day of the games when the retired gladiator comes in. I'm sad we left at such an intense part, I need to finish it!
I feel horrible, though. I can't get Kallen out of my head . . . I hate it, I want him gone. He haunts me now, he is a ghost that stalks me but isn't there. And yet, I want him there. I want him to be solid, to hug me, to tell me everything is going to be okay. I want him back. The old him, the one who loved me for me and not my body, who didn't deny me hugs and laughed and said hi and everything. I, just want the ghost to find peace. Maybe he is, and the only way he can is if I am not there . . . I will have to deal . . .
Yeah, after that, came home and played Guitar Hero. Kyle called me and we went running again, but farther this time. We came back, chilled for an hour, then he came inside and ate my mom's burnt chicken, which was really good. He liked it, thanked my mom, and split. Now, I'm writing and wishing Chris (Mailla) was online to chat. Oh well, nothing more for today. Goodnight, world, sleep well
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